Monday, April 1, 2013

Another blog...uggh

I've been encouraged to blog because some have generously suggested that I have something to say. I think they're being kind. It is true, that I do have something to say. Whether or not it should be said is up for debate.

One of the things I hate about internet writing is the need to censor. You can't say this, because they'll think that. This is where the title of the blog comes from. At the time I started this, I had no intention of anyone ever seeing it. It was not a pleasant time in my life. This was my first entry...

What if one could say whatever was in their heart? What if there was no barrier to the truth inside and it was free to come out? What if I shared who I really was without fear of consequence or retribution?  That's the hope I have for this space. I'd don't really plan for anyone to see it because that would mean having to answer to them. I hate that about this life...that you have to answer to those who have no business questioning you in the first place.

Maybe this won't work. Maybe this will be an experiment that fails. But, maybe, I'll have a space that allows me to share the truth, as the Truth speaks to me, and , maybe, it will set me free.
You can see here, that I'm basically throwing my own pity-party and just slightly self-consumed. Most people are not aware that I have lived the majority of my life in this mindset. What goes on inside a man is rarely what comes out. It is cloaked and masked to present whatever image he thinks the world wants to see. This is true for the Christian, as well as the Non-. Of course, Jesus came to set men free from this life of lies, which makes it all the more tragic when a Christian remains in darkness. Thankfully, God is all about the business of tragedy. Luke 4:18-22 tell me so.

So... over the past months I've been forced to strip off the masks and pretense and get real with myself and God. It was the greatest blessing He's given me to date. The fruit of it has been a better marriage, family, heart, ministry, and relationship with Jesus, whom I love with all my heart.

This, then, is my blog. I don't know how often I'll post, but that's neither here nor there. If you find yourself here, then I pray the Lord bless you as you seek Him. He loves you. He is big and glorious enough to bring you out of any degree of darkness, brokenness, depravity, or pain. You just have to get real and strip away all pretense... Biblically speaking, Matthew 5:3
"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of Heaven."
Indeed! And, for all you censors out there, I give you the words of Pontius Pilate to the Pharisees... "What I have written, I have written."

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